The drum-roll

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Have you ever had that feeling that you just want to go head-on into a problem you already see coming a mile away?
And by all logical means, was it fully avoidable, saving you tons of confusion and distress but somehow, somehow you just want to dive into it anyway and figure it out later.

With it, comes inevitable consequences, outcomes that you probably (at that moment) tell yourself never to want to go through this once more, yet you would do it all again... in a heartbeat.

It's like discovering how far does the rabbit hole go,
it's thrilling, the moments where excitement peaks,
like a steady drum-roll that never ends,
that constant surge of uncertainty,

It makes you feel alive.

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I see you.

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Before I continue blogging about fairly boastful Mercedes-y stuff with publicly insignificant personal details of my life or my unfathomable views and thoughts that I take precious time to write in hopes that it would be appreciated somehow, (Hey, I just summed up the entire blogger community in a sentence) I would like to say Avatar changed my life!

By now, everyone should have at least seen it twice… a week. But illogically if you have not, you’d just missed out on undeniably, the Best Movie of 2009 and also for the rest of your life, now I can die happy. Never have I felt fully transported into a world that never existed, ignites so much imagination till a point ‘logic’ kinda agreed with the movie. Returning to see Avatar in the cinema every time felt like Jake Sully returning into the capsule going into his Avatar, that’s how profound the world of Pandora is to me. Plus, I think I’ve fallen for Naytiri.

Yes, I know to some the story is nothing short of unoriginal, but the good news? It doesn’t matter. The story line works and rakes in the cash, so why fix something that isn’t broken?

Oe-I nga-ti kameie!

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My workstation

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"A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where a train stops. On my desk, I have a work station"

Will be right back.

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I am my very own test subject.

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I just had the freshest-of-air blown right at me, a metaphor really. I came into 2010, exactly 2 days ago not having any New Year resolutions, plans nor expectation. But somehow, that divine breath of fresh air did ignite some feelings of anticipation for 2010; it’s gonna be a 'stirring year' I believe.

Looking back, 2009 has been one huge year of discerning myself further, further than I knew I could. Both deliberately and inadvertently putting myself in positions that I wouldn’t probably be in, to some extend affecting others, positively and maybe negatively too, well, some things we do are unintentionally double-edged swords. Although, nothing too extreme I assume, constantly evaluating and reflecting my every course of action sturdily the entire time. It is almost as if to scrutinize myself, all for the benefit of a self diagnosis. I am my very own test subject.

And my simplified conclusion that I came about myself can be summed in a quote from Peggy Tabor Millin which states:

" We never touch people so lightly, that we do not leave a trace."

-Peggy Tabor Millin

Which gives rise to the connotation that our acts no matter how diminutive do have effect on others. A trace you probably wish would be a good one to others.



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