I'm back...

I’ve not been myself the past few weeks…

People around me I either gave a cold shoulder or acted weird upon…

and I, well… stoning, shutting down and at one point, talking to myself (ok…that does not sound as bad as it looks =P)

I’ve been losing a lot of myself somehow, not sure when it begun.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s has nothing to do with the people I was with or who affected me, but just me alone.

I’ve lost sentiments of me and also others in the process, don’t know if I’ll ever get it back.

This long holiday has really taken a toll on me.

I never thought I would literally rot during the holidays, but that’s what was happening.

Now, looking back… it’s strange that I was like this for the past 2 weeks, maybe more.

Sad thing is, not realizing it at all or the people I affected until now.

Luckily, caught hold of the rope before the "actual me" slipped…

All thanks to God for some negative occurrences that have happened lately that really slapped me hard and awoken me to the realization of the “actual me” that I was losing.

I'll keep my mind fresh and busy now, too much lazing around that's why. =)

Well, I guess I can proudly say that “I’m Back!” =D

This has been DAY ONE of my soberness.

(fyi, im not on any medication and people, don't think im some kind of psychopath ok? lol im perfectly fine, just went through super weird-emo-rotting-at-home times thats all =D)